Walking at daybreak, I compare you
Behind the mountain, a rising sun.
And I suddenly feel like the moon,
We could never, ever be one.
And there you are, a body of water,
Drowning, I’ll take the risk.
But we are like water and oil
Forever could never mix.
Like the calendar flipping its pages,
Hands of clock chasing in ages,
Winter, spring, summer, and fall,
Existing together I could never recall.
And when I come to you face to face,
All I could feel is a labyrinth.
No meeting, no talking just like a maze,
As if my existence was never a hint.
Still you are so inevitable,
I always get sensitized.
You are becoming an oxygen,
I could never antagonize.
Forever your name only I could utter
For all we do is to avoid each other.
Never could I say, “Love is in the air”
In this so-called immiscible love affair.
-Kim Gabriel T. Magtibay, RMT.-
10/05/2013 @ home
“525,600 minutes. 525,000 moments so dear. 525, 600 minutes… How do you measure a year in a life?” as the song “Seasons of Love” from the RENT movie sings to everyone. Are our lives really measurable? Our happiness, does it really depend on something earthly that could be gone in any moment? Or is it something from deep within our selves, some kind of special bond that really paints a genuine smile on our faces, like the ones with our family and friends? And when everything we want in our lives is within our reach, can we already say that our lives are worth living for?
22 years passed, I could say that every day I spent was all worth living. I grew up in a house with enough space for me to play. I went to exclusive, private schools during elementary and high school, and to a renowned university during college. I am now enrolled in a private, medical school and everything that I wanted, I have it all: Latest gadgets, sufficient money, designer clothes, good music, etc. I could say that all these material things made my life easier to live and I could say that all these made me happy, and I could not ask for more.
Is it enough? Of course, material things would never be enough. “No man is an island.” And all these material things, yes they are all good, they could make me happy, but nothing would ever make my life worth living other than my family and friends. Material things do not have life. They could not talk with you in times of trouble, cannot hug you, cannot kiss you, cannot support you, and they will never, ever love you back. Yes, I could think of a thousand more things that make me happy, and a thousand more things that would make me happy. But honestly, I could only think of two that makes my life, not just happy but worth living, and will make my life worth living for many decades to come: FAMILY & FRIENDS.
Each person is searching for something that would make their lives complete, something that would paint that sunny optimism on their faces and would make them smile, and something that would make their lives worth living. As for me, I found it through my family and friends. But whether we found it, or not yet, we should always remember that we measure life not in inches, not in miles, not in years, but in terms of love. “And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is LOVE.” –I Cor. 13
KIM GABRIEL TABIA MAGTIBAY, RMT, MD.
Sleepless nights, information overload, caffeine intoxications, social deprivations, and a lot more to complete the list. Those were only few to describe how awful being a medical student could be. But despite of it all, I love where I am. I love what I am doing. I love chasing my dreams for I know this would make me happy in the long run.
“Many are called, few are chosen. Many are deserving, but few are privileged.” Yes, I am privileged. So I took the opportunity to embrace medical school and got married to the fact that I would be the one who would save lives soon. I embraced medicine because I simply wanted to. No one forced me to do this. Even my parents do not want to send me to Medical school at first, but eventually, they became very supportive in what I wanted to be. Yes, I could also see myself, if I wasn’t here, as a competent, compassionate, and committed Medical Technologist except for one thing, I do not want to be anyone’s assistant. I wanted to be the boss.
I know I could sound ambitious, but one of my goals is to be the chief of all the doctors in Makati Medical Center. I do not know yet the mechanics on how will I be able to achieve it but I firmly believe that eventually, I will know how to play the game and win it. Other plans would be having my own family and raise two children, build my own foundation that will focus on educating the less privileged but deserving people, take my parents and brothers around the globe, and hopefully, to live “the life” of a successful and fulfilled doctor with a lot of money.
Time flies fast and we must surrender the things of the youth. 10 years from now I see myself as an average salary-earner Neuro-Surgeon having my clinics in both urban and rural areas. I also see myself teaching in any medical school in Manila, and guiding groups of students on their preceptorials or other laboratory sessions. I do not want to sound prophetic but I know that, “With great power comes great responsibility.” For now, I will do my best to understand what has to be understood, and to pass all my courses and graduate by March 2015. Whatever avenue of specialization I would be walking, all I know is, I will save the world soon.